in the beginning

in the beginning was nothingness.
the hebrew translates as "chaos" too.
i'm feeling pretty chaotic today, God.
pretty empty inside.
things out of order, unformed, out of control.
i am a dark, massless thing.

God Himself was hovering over me,
over the waters of me.
with a desire to form me somehow,
to make something out of
the nothingness of me.

with just a
few words
He brings light,
something good.
i bathe in the width of it,
still untouched by divine hands.

what is the light of the world if not
also something that reveals my chaos?
How good, but how bitter too.
to see how i really am.

He gathers the expanses, forming.
He works in the light and His hands are like
glowing embers, melting and molding as he goes,
leaving nothing untouched, unseparated.

It becomes too much for me
to see this sprouting beauty.
I want to be like it.
I want to be part of it.
with meaning,
with wonders,
with miracles.
each one, one by one,
coming alive.

keep molding me, God.