the covenant that never fails

Lately I have been so sensitive to the Spirit of God, to the point where i can't control myself anymore. it's been happening more and more. There will be times when I hear a worship song that expresses something in my heart, or in the silence in my room, God will tells me "i not only like you... i love you a lot." how hard is it to believe that God loves us, much less likes who we are? this is a lie that i have to constantly dismantle in my life. when i believe that God dislikes me for something i've done, or the way i've treated that person, it makes it so much harder for me to come back to Him, or come back to anyone.

there's a song i'm listening to now by joanna reyburn called "what do you think about me?" you can download it for free here.

it reminded me that God's loving promise to me has never failed. i can't count how many times this week i have failed Him, and sometimes it's hard to see past those faults. but when i hear this song, i realized that on that day when i first decided to follow Him, when i was 13, i prayed a prayer that i could stay close to God... and it was a prayer that even i couldn't mess up because it was a prayer based on His faithfulness and not mine. I know He is faithful, he will take all the brokenness I have and never forget about me. That is a powerful promise.

I think of Israel in that context. His covenant with Abraham and Isaac and Jacob... fulfilled through the giving of Himself through Yeshua... It was a covenant made long ago that even Israel today can't mess up. If only they would turn to Him again, seek the King of glory with all their hearts.

There are some days this becomes so clear in my head, when I just want to soak up the love God gives me. I'm like a child now, just waiting for the Father to give me His love. I realize it's all I've been waiting for; and nothing else will satisfy.

This is another prayer that I can't mess up in the future, that I will pray this moment: "awaken my heart to love more fully" because it's based on His love. It can't fail.

Come, Lord Jesus. I'm hungry for Your love in this country.